desire.

I recently went without meat for two months.  A completely unplanned venture, but a learning experience nonetheless.  The choice was not because of a fear of eating meat or a belief that the life of an animal is sacred, although I am constantly infuriated with the way that animals are treated today, I understand that we have dominion over animals.  It started as a commitment of sorts to not partake in the eating of meat for three weeks.. during these three weeks however, I started to discover that it was not as difficult for me to abstain from meat.  

do i even really like meat?  do i enjoy eating it?  or do i simply tell myself that meat is a substance i need because society tells me that i need it?

How do we know what we want.. what we desire?  

I often find myself, in my own world, consuming this, partaking in that.. completely unaware of what I am even doing.  Our minds have been trained to take whatever is placed before us as truth..  accept society's standards, don't question anything or you'll be looked upon as foolish.

Sadly, I have this attitude towards so many areas in my life.. even my faith.  God wants us to question him.. to ask him questions, to really know him.  To own this faith as our own.  Not as someone else perceives him to be.